let's get lost

“Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia.You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”
― John Green. Sophie. 16. San Diego


It was a perfect day. The kind of day that felt like it was truly flawless, but don’t we always come to believe that everything in the past is without a flaw? Who knows if it really was a perfect day or not, there must’ve been some kind of mishap (in life there always is) but looking back now I can’t remember anything but how beautiful this day was. I can’t remember all the details, it’s almost a blur. But I remember the important things, like the sun making my skin feel warm and comfortable, like it was soaking me up and making me apart of itself. I remember the wind playing with my hair and tangling my blonde strands. I remember the sweet echo of my sisters laugh. And the sound the polaroid camera made every time a photo was taken. The feel of gritty sand against my feet. Eros’ sweatshirt wrapped around me. And I had been to this beach so many times but on this day everything about it felt so new. It felt like my life was on fire. Like I was on the edge between an ending and a new beginning. 

You think you understand, but you don’t. You think you see, but you’re blind to all of it. You say “life is good” but you still walk around in the same negative daze. Wake up. Realize that everything in life doesn’t happen to you, it happens for you. There is no bad experience in life, for every experience grows us and puts us onto the right path. Every closed door leads to a better door that is just waiting to be opened. But so often we’re too scared, too comfortable with our own pain and suffering and holding on, that we don’t embrace the change, we don’t accept that one door has closed and because we don’t accept the closed door we never open the new one that is awaiting us. We fall into the same ugly pattern society pushes down our throats, which is all about image and materialistic things. We buy into the hype, and believe all that we hear. We make other people’s truths our truths. Wake up. Ask questions again. And don’t ask the same old surfacy questions people always ask, like “Do you drink?” or “What school do you go to?” No, get real with people. Ask them about their family, and how they’ve grown up and if they’ve ever really been hurt, or if they believe in a God, or what they really want out of life. Get deep with people. Show people you want to know more about them than just what their hobbies are, or what makeup they use. We need to start treating people like they’re actual souls, not treat them like they’re just a body or a personality. Recognize that no one is perfect, but don’t point out their flaws. Let go of the poisonous people surrounding you and make room for the positive ones. Be honest with yourself. Get to know all the dark parts of you, the sides of you that you never want anyone else to see, and learn to love them and embrace them. Learn to love all your imperfections. Because perfect people don’t inspire others, it’s the imperfect people who embrace their imperfections who inspire others. And most of all, fall in love with life. Not just on the easy days, or the days where everything seems to be going right. Love life despite all it’s flaws. Love life even when it’s hard to. Because life is truly beautiful, and it’s all we really have.